Tomorrow, March 17, 2014, Jacob goes in for his Fontan procedure. This is the final of the big three surgeries.
As you know, I can get quite anxious before a procedure, even a minor one and this is how I deal with it - venting to anyone who will lend an ear. All day today I gave him extra hugs and tickles. I kept focusing on two lines of thought; how will he be after the surgery and could this be our last day together. I know that he is in the best care around, but I just can't shake these feelings. My wife and I have been feeling a bit of friction and the cause is this anxiety before the operation.
Tonight when we put down the twins, all five of us were in the room together. I couldn't help thinking that this is the last time all of us are going to be together for quite some time.
Time to go to bed -its'a big day for me too.
